『シーシュポスの神話』（カミュ）

これ以後は自分自身の人生に対してまったくの異邦人となって自分の人生を育んでいき、恋人を見るときのような近視眼は棄てて自分の人生を眺めわたすこと、ここに解放の原理がある。（•••）ある朝まだき、刑場へと向けて開かれた牢獄の門をまえにしたときの死刑囚の、あの神のような自由な行動可能性、生の純粋な炎以外のいっさいのものに対する、あの信じがたい無関心、-そう、じつにはっきりと感じられよう、こうした状態においてこそ、死と不条理とが、妥当な唯一の自由の、つまり人間の心情が経験し生きることのできる自由の原理となるのだ。これが第二の帰結である。こうして不条理な人間は、炎と燃えあがりしかも冷たく凍った宇宙、どこまでも透明でしかも限界のある宇宙、なにひとつ可能ではなくしかもすべてがあたえられている宇宙、それをすぎた先は崩壊と虚無に他ならぬような宇宙を垣間見る。そのときかれは、このような宇宙の中を生きることを受入れ、そこから力と希望の拒否とを抽き出し、なぐさめられることのけっしてない人生を執拗に証ししようとする決意を固めることができるのだ。（清水徹）

Earthquake

I think after 3.11 (The Earthquake day), the paradigm changed. The notion of security, border line between usual days and extraordinary days, relation between individuals and the society have changed. The most important thing is to survive, and we are not brutal animals, so what we have to consider next is what makes a human being as a human being.

Free

I think the most important thing is passion. Henry Miller said, "Once you have given up the ghost, everything follows with dead certainty, even in the midst of chaos." Everyone has passion but if you can not feel it, this is because you are blind, cover your eyes by silly assumptions, hide your own possibilities by yourself. In principle you are free, but if you do not believe you are free, you are not free. You have to believe in freedom.

Who am I?

First of all there is Blue. Then there is Black... No, I am not Paul Auster.

OK...

My name is Tada. I am 31 years old. I am single. I was born in Tokyo and still live here, Tokyo. When I was 28, I got a master's degree in French literature, then I went to Paris and studied Antonin Artaud (one of the most famous surrealists) at Paris University for about one year. After that, I went back to Japan and now I am working at a prep school as a consultant. Am I happy? Maybe not.

Sheryl Crow sings "All I wanna do is have some fun" but all I, a man called Tada, what I wanna do is... maybe it is not "have some fun".

I like philosophy, literature, art, Paris, Tokyo, freedom, sexuality, bar, library, French Connection (cocktail), Early Times (bourbon). I practiced judo when I was junior high and high school student. I have the black belt.

I am a flea in a bottle, but like Oscar Wild said, "We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."

I am Japanese. I speak Japanese, English and French. I am an artist... artist of life.